Only Human,

一个人擦眼泪，一个人好累。谁和我一样，等不到她的谁。我不懂要拿什么来安慰自己。

today bo go school again,jiu go home lor after my parent go out of house worx.guess what i nearly faint at home,suddenly blank out early in de morning because my aunt de maid come find me want to take things from me dan i was like going to fall down liao she tio shock.hahas!lucky i suddenly become normal but still giddy after pass the things to the maid jiu go rest a while but still giddy,don't know why.i don't think is because i bo eat jiu like that lor,true lar,bo eat will giddy but this time round like more jia lat,after that my kor go buy bao for me cause dont feel like eating but still giddy sia,think later at night go see doctor liao.hahas!nothing happen much today,just sms with DANNY and JIAN CHENG~hahas!danny de TEDDY BEAR and de pillow is like soooooo cute can! (: dan JIAN CEHNG leh,nowdays sms with him like de conversation like weird weird de lor.hahas!nevermind,got sms jiu ok liao?hahas!BYES EVERYONE (:

I don't know what happen,

i suddenly just brust out crying after the maid go home liao.

i think a lot of things is bothering me,but i don't know what.

i feel that i very lonely.

i don't know why,even though there is some of the friends tell me you are not lonely or what,i still dont't know why i will feel this way?

maybe they don't mean it?they just say it for the sake of saying? "hahas"

have anyone wonder why i want to be tour guide and adore ferris wheels so much?

because there is so much things happening,i need to have some peace escape from those problem,,so i need to get out of singapore and travel around the world but if travel around alone will be quite lonely,it is good but if i am a tour guide,it will be different,i will need to lead a group of the people and tell them the culture of the country and blah blah blah,when i saw them smiling and there are happiness in them i will feel happy too,even though i will encounter a lot of problems,but i guess i will still be very happy.

well,deep in my heart i know that my result is not very good,i have no confident in getting into the tourism industries,so when you are feeling unhappy,you want to go to a far far places but you can't go because of some reason,the only way is to go to a high high place.

you will at least feel that you are on top of the world and will forget everything.

well,to me ferris wheels is the best place,i don't know why but i just adore ferris wheels a lot.i just feel that when i reach the top of the ferris wheels i can forget everything and i can be happy.

someone told me when those who wanted to go up high to the ferris wheels mean they want to have happiness,i guess i am one of them.

but i have no chance to go ferris wheels because sometime when i got money,my friends no money,than i no money they got money.hais.

i really want to go up to the top of the ferris wheels,i want to be happy,as in real happy,really happy,deep from my heart de.

i don't know why i need to pretend,maybe i am a happy go lucky person in front of everyone,so i need to continue to be like that.i don't want to see my friends not happy,i rather not happy than my friends not happy.so i need to pretend that i am happy,so when my friends are sad they can just come find me and tell me their problem.hahas.say so much for what sia?hahas,silly,no one will know.hahas D;

it is true,when i am sms-ing with people but i am in a sad mood,i just simply put smiley faces,no one will really know if you are really sad ma,all the people will know that you are "happy",hahas.

Pretend,I think is the only way =' )

no one will know anyway.

Posted on — Wednesday, September 17, 2008 at 4:16 PM

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